Reflections

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever." Hebrews 13:8

2012-01-17T21:49:00.001-07:00

"Sprinkle me with the cleansing blood and I shall be clean again. Wash me and I shall be whiter than snow." Psalms 51:7

Amid a life of many transitions, I rejoice that Jesus, my Lord and Savior never changes. Nor does His Word.

One of those transitions for me recently has been searching for a home church.  Anyone who has experienced this may know that it is not an easy process. Especially in this day and age when many churches have dramatically changed the manner in which they worship the Lord.

I am having quite the struggle with some churches who seem to have become more like the secular world. In Romans 12, Paul tells us "Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but be a new and different person with a fresh newness in all you do and think."

Some may call me old fashioned and I don't mind if they do. I don't think I should be entertained when I go to worship the Lord. And I desire a time of reverence and quiet reflection to confess my sins - on my knees, if possible. Following one service I attended recently, I came home, lit a candle and read my Bible to have a quiet time with God. There was just no time at the service to do so. Not that I am saying worship services should be completely quiet!

The balance of joyfulness and reflection seemed to be off at this particular church and in others I have visited. I have asked myself, are some churches seemingly becoming like the world to reach people for Christ? If so, is He, Himself, the living Christ, not sufficient? Did he not warn us not to do this? In the book of Matthew, Jesus said "You are the world's seasoning, to make it tolerable. If you lose your flavor what will happen to the world?"

There's always been some differences among bodies of Christian believers - how they want to worship and what they believe. I respect those differences. Therefore, we do have a number of denominations across the United States. The various interpretations of the Holy Scriptures seems to have been a contributing factor. But the basic truths of God's Word still remained a common thread.

However, during the last three or four decades, that thread is weakening. Some Christian churches have went through extreme change -not only in the way they worship the Lord but in their doctrine. Some are turning from the truth of God's Word and bringing worldly ways into their sanctuaries. This brings great sadness to my soul and concern for the future of the chruch. And thus, I struggle to find my spot. Where does God want me?

Sometimes I wish I could walk into a country church along the prairie in the 1800's where the Old, Old Story is being told including some reference to that word. That word that seems to be missing in many churches today. Sin. Yes, that word that is mentioned in the Scripture many times over. I asked some Sunday School children about sin recently and they did not know what it meant. That was an eye-opener.

It is true that God hates sin. People never have liked to hear about it and still don't, me included. So, in order to keep people filling the churches, could it be that some pastors and leaders are choosing not to mention it much? It appears we all want to feel good, have an uplifting worship service, experience the wonderful love of God and fellowship with one another.

That is all well and good but does not cover all the bases. Now days, it takes a very brave pastor to preach about what they used to call "hell and brimstone." But if your pastor does, it is because He loves and cares for his sheep as Christ cares for you. Rejoice!!!

If you really think about the core of Christianity -if we had never sinned there would be no Christian faith. Yes, God is a God of love but He is also a God of justice and guidance.

As I reflect upon the Ten Commandments, each is related to a sin that God warns us not to do. Why? Because He loves us. He wants our lives to reflect His guidance and for us to experience abundant life only He can provide.

Ultimately, He knew we would fail and sin. Sinful people cannot have eternal life. But God loved us so much He made a way for us to become holy (or without sin) so we can enter heaven and live forever. Thank you Father!

He sent Jesus to earth as a man. Jesus taught people about love but He also made it plain that all of us are sinners. He spoke about true repentance, telling us how we could be born again. How struggling with sin would be a never ending battle while on earth and to expect it. But, assuring us that He would be here to help us through the power of the Holy Spirit and we could be forgiven when we sin.

But we have to do our part. We have to believe Jesus died for our sins, and accept Him as our personal Savior. To repent and confess our sins and to accept His merciful forgiveness. And we have to be willing to change our sinful habits and live as Christ would want us to for we have been made clean through the blood of His one and only Son, Jesus Christ. It is that plain and that simple.

I started to read and study the book of Acts in my quest for a body of believers that are Bibilcally solid and where I can serve and worship the Lord. It has really been a blessing.

I am reading about how they often met in small groups in homes, took communion together and were filled with the Holy Spirit. I am learning about the boldness the apostles had when they shared the message of Christ. It took courage. Stephen was remarkable.(Acts 7) He told it like it was. And he died for it. As I reflected about his experience I had to ask myself, would I be willing to die for the sake of Christ and the Gospel?  Would you?

Where can I serve the Lord with the gifts He has given me? Where can I worship Him in a way that is respectful, reverent, honorable and gives me the opportunity to lift my hands in praise but also kneel to confess my sins?

God knows and I am trusting Him to show me:-)

Blessing to you, thank you for visiting my blog.:-)

How about you, do you have a home church?

How do you worship the Lord?

Treasures

2011-12-31T18:15:00.000-07:00

"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth, nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal." Matthew 6:19-20

A glimpse of one of God's treasures He has

given us to enjoy.

Photo by Carole S. Amateis-Lebruska 2011

I was organizing storage space in one of my closets the other day - since I was putting my Christmas decorations away, it seemed like a good time to put some other things in their place as well.

Having moved recently, the combination spare bedroom and office has been bugging me. Boxes and plastic containers from the move were still there and I have more or less, been working around the clutter which is not my cup of tea!

However, it has not been on the top of my list of priorities. I've been busy working as a substitute para educator at a local school. It has been fun working with the elementary kids but has taken a lot of energy. The last thing I want to do when I get home from work is tackle that mess! I also do some writing projects in one corner of the room to make some extra income. God has been good in providing me work and I praise Him for it.

A week off from school duties provided an opportunity for me to clean up the room. As I worked the other day and tried to get all the boxes into the storage space, I became increasingly frustrated. With the shelves situated the way they were - the big totes were just not going to fit. I tried several different combinations and switched some items into smaller boxes.

At one point, I was lifting a plastic container that held my Christmas glassware and cups to one shelf. Standing on my nifty step ladder, I was caught off guard when all of a sudden the lid popped off. Down went the box crashing to the floor - glass flying everywhere. It took me a second to absorb what had just happened - hadn't I just packed that box carefully so nothing would be broken? And, yet, in a spilt second, at least half of it lay in pieces on the floor.

At first I was heartbroken. But as I cleaned up the broken glass, I thought, I just have too much stuff. This is ridiculous. And I was able to put it in perspective - this was just a box of glasses and cups - that is all. Sure, some had memories attached, but I still have those memories even though the items are no longer.

The words that Jesus spoke are so true. We store up so many treasures on this earth and for what? We can't take them with us when we enter heaven. Needless to say, I got rid of some of my belongings after that episode and plan to get rid of some more.

I truly have all I need. Later, I reflected, maybe I should concentrate on storing up treasures in heaven instead of here on earth.......like Jesus said.

What are some of those treasures? For me, it's. . . . . .

Walking among nature to appreciate the treasures God has given us
Spending quality time with family and friends
Listening to the laugh of a blind boy as I push him in a swing
Playing the piano for a Christmas Eve service at the church
Keeping in touch with friends who are in need of someone to care
Helping a special education student learn their multiplication tables
Praying for friends and family and people I don't know as the Holy Spirit directs
Writing insights about life in my journal that may help others some day
Giving a personal gift that can't be bought with money
Doing an unexpected favor for someone
Taking time to write a thank you note
Reading my Bible and talking to God
Striving to live as the Scriptures teach - not an easy one:-)
Smiling at someone who is having a bad day and then praying for them
Remembering to give some of what God has given me financially
Fulfilling a need someone may have, expecting nothing in return

The New American Standard Life Application Bible explains storing up treasures well. "Our intention should be to seek the fulfillment of God's purpose in all we do, not merely what we do with our money."

So, in a world that emphasizes what we have and encourages us to get more treasures than we will ever need, the words of Jesus are refreshing.

One incident, on a winter day, as I was working on a storage project turned out to be a blessing. Why? Because it reminded me of what is really important in life. Material possessions aren't it - and the older I get, the more I realize this truth.

How about you. Are you storing material treasures on earth or treasures in heaven? It is something for all of us to consider.

Blessings to you in the New Year!

"For God so loved the world that He have His only Son so that anyone who believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

2011-10-25T12:31:00.000-06:00

Do you truly know my Lord?

Please stop by and reflect upon these lyrics as you ponder your relationship with God and His son Jesus Christ, our personal Lord and Savior.

Do You Know Him?

Do you know Him, do you know Him,

Do you know my precious Jesus?

Do you know Him, do you know Him,

Do you know my Lord and King?

Oh, my Jesus, He has sunshine,

He has sunshine for your soul;

And the Light, when it's within

It makes you whole.

Oh I love Him, how I love Him,

How I love my Savior Jesus.

Oh, I love Him, how I love Him

How I love this friend of mine!

For, my Jesus, He has never,

No, He's never let me down

I'm so thankful for this new love

I have found.

Have you given, have you given

Have you given Him your tired heart?

Have you given your life a brand new start?

Take His hand, take his hand now

He is waiting here to lead you

And He'll walk with You

All your life through;

Yes! All your life through!

Lyrics and music by Carole S. Amateis 1973

This is the first song I wrote when I used to rock my three babies to sleep - now all in their 30's! It is quite simple really compared to some I now write. But it has a profound message. An important message for the world.

My sister Marilyn also sang this as a solo for church services and I taught it to Sunday School children.

Some day I hope to include the actual melodies that I have on CD on my website. But for now, I hope the lyrics have blessed you and spoke to your heart and soul.

Until next time, God Bless.

Do you have any lyrics or poems you would like to share about the Lord?
Or what the Lord means to you personally?

"Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving." Colossians 4:2

2011-10-19T18:11:00.003-06:00

Experiencing the Power of Prayer

(c)Photo by Carole Amateis-Lebruska 2011

I believe in the power of prayer more than ever. More than I did a year ago, more than even a month ago. The Lord has taught me much about the divine privilege He has given each of us: the ability to communicate with our Heavenly Father, the God who created heaven and earth and you and I.

When one experiences a personal crisis, God is always at work. You can count on it. Such a struggle is kind of similar to climbing a mountain like this. Seemingly almost impassable. But, with one step at a time, prayer helps us to climb onward.

God is constantly active, not only in the person who is living through it but for those brothers and sisters in Christ who are praying fervently. He has a message for everyone - even those watching from a distance.

During the last two and half months, I have been in a struggle - recovering from surgery, the unexpected and sudden end of my marriage, and literally having no place to call home. I am still working through the shock of it all. Each day I think I get a little stronger. And since the beginning - from the days leading up to my surgery to now, I have felt the prayers of God's people.

It is as if the Lord has literally carried me at times. I do not even know how I got through some days - it is somewhat of a blur. But every day - I mean every day, the Lord walked beside me. He knew exactly what was happening - it was no surprise to Him.

I could probably write a book on the marvelous ways God has answered prayers in just this short time. But here are just a few examples of how God was a part of every day life.These happenings are what I call a "God thing" -that is to say, He was very much involved :-)

In July, I canceled a surgery that was to be done in one hospital and went to one far from home. It was good that I did; not only did I have a hiatal hernia but further tests ordered by my doctor showed that it was large and it was twisting and could cut off my air supply. The day I was to have that test, I woke up with a massive migraine - but I had to fast for 12 hours and could not take any medicine for it. Somehow - through the power of prayer - I drove myself through heavy traffic to the medical imaging facility and got through the test, then drove back to my son's apartment where I hit the bed after taking meds for the nausea and excruciating pain. Thank you Lord for getting me through that one.

The surgeon saw me on one day and the procedure was done the next morning. He said it would probably take about two hours or so and I may have a tube inserted in my abdomen. It took just a little over an hour and no tube had to be inserted. People were praying. Four days later, I drove myself home - across the entire state, stopping to walk about every hour or so to prevent blood clots. I made the trip just fine. People were praying.

I was on a liquid/soft diet for six weeks. I was supposed to have trouble swallowing but have not. I have healed much more quickly than I ever imagined. God's servants have been praying.

When my marriage began to fall apart, the phone rang - family and friends were there for me - their prayers and counsel got me through some really painful and difficult days. I did not know what to do and I was still not well.

Through the power of the Lord, I had the strength to move when my marriage collapsed; I was advised to take things with me if I left. Not that I did it alone - in fact, the Lord sent wonderful Christian friends and family to help me - I mostly directed them as they packed my belongings into a storage unit. I felt rather helpless - it was hard not being able to do much. But they were so loving and caring - often reminding me to go rest and not lift anything heavy so I would not hurt myself or undo the surgery.

Still in shock, I left the storage unit. Leaving my belongings and the life I had known behind, it hit me. I have no home. I have no job. My husband had told me I did not need to work outside the home. I had little savings. The Lord brought to mind that Jesus had no home during a time when he was on earth. He did not fret - He knew His Father would take care of Him. That knowledge was a comfort.

A longtime friend and dear sister in Christ and her husband opened their home to me. Another answered prayer. I stayed there for almost two weeks looking for places to live, swallowing my pride and lining up at the Health and Human Services for assistance. It was there that I saw others - so many other people who needed help.  It was an eye opener. As was my time at the job service agency. People from far and near looking for jobs. It was something I needed to experience. I know God will use it somehow in my future - hopefully to help others.

Even though my husband agreed to take care of me for one month, I knew I had to find a source of income soon. For days, I searched for work and a place to live. Family and friends continued to tell me - I am praying for you. I knew it - I felt it. Friends, former classmates and family across the miles called. Cell phones and the Internet can be wonderful tools to bind hearts and lives together - another blessing from the Lord.

Then one day I walked into a job agency. I was put to work that afternoon as a medical records clerk. It was temporary but I was thankful just the same - another answer to prayer. Could my body endure the work? My doctor gave me the go ahead.

The same day my wonderful Christian friends who had previously been my landlords said I could rent the very same apartment I had six years ago. It was a miracle! And the power of prayer in action again. I praised and thanked the Lord.

Today, the temp job has ended. I continue to search for work and to unpack boxes - which were moved by another group of Christian friends while I was at work (some the same as who had moved me the first time). Can I ever repay them for what they have done? I will pray that the Lord blesses them in special ways, for one thing.

One of those dear friends, a pastor, shared some of his earnings with me when my marriage first ended. The money had been a gift to him from another Christan - he just passed it on to me. A true blessing from the Lord. I spend it very decisively - for I look upon it as from the Lord Himself.

Another dear friend has hooked up my washer and dryer and done numerous things for me around the apartment that I could not do myself.  This friend has added a lot of joy to my life through humor and other friends have invited me out to eat with them to ease my loneliness. Answered prayers.
All are God's servants. All a part of answered prayers.

I do not know what the future holds but I know Who holds my future. I am trying very hard to listen to the Lord's leading. I have music to share and writing skills to put to good use for Him. But I also have to make a living and I am no spring chicken!

And through this all, as God has taught me much about the power of prayer, I have prayed for others and continue to. Because I know prayer has power and is one of the truest expressions of Christ-like love.

If the Holy Spirit is prompting you to pray for someone, do it.  And keep praying as He told us to - without ceasing. God always answers - in His time. He may answer in ways you do not expect or say "wait awhile" or perhaps His answer may even be "no" - but He will answer, according to His divine will.

And if you need prayer - ask for it. Do not be ashamed or too proud to ask for help. God has provided this gift to us - receive it and be thankful.

Have any of you had the opportunity to see prayer at work in your life?

"I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty." 2 Corinthians 6:18

2011-08-24T00:35:00.004-06:00

Windmill At Rest
(c) Carole Amateis Lebruska 2011

Time has flown since the end of May when I developed some health problems. . . . . a week ago today I had surgery and am now recovering. Thus, no blog post for awhile. And this one will be brief.
The small garden plot I previously wrote about is yielding a harvest of fresh veggies in abundance, although I cannot eat much of it nor care for it now as I allow my body to recover. But my hubby can:-)
A period of six weeks or so will require a soft, liquid diet, no lifting anything over 10 pounds or straining, lots of rest and lots of walking.
It will be a test in patience:-)
I was incredibly blessed during this experience and am so thankful to be a child of God.
Stay tuned for more later. I have so much to share.
I hope this verse from 2 Corinthians encourages you in some way. . . . whatever you are facing, remember, if you are a believer in the Lord Jesus Christ and have accepted Him as your Savior, you are a child of God. You are his son or his daughter - how awesome is that?
He walks with you every single day of your life and is a constant abiding presence. I have experienced His strength, His peace, His counsel. I can say, without a doubt, that I have felt the prayers of His people and continue to.
And, I am more determined than ever to make a commitment to serve Him via the music He has given me. To take it out into the world to minister to those in need of comfort, peace, and joy. Beyond the walls of Sunday School classrooms and sanctuaries where worship services are held.
But right now, I must be patient and let my body heal from the trauma surgery entails. I rest in the comfort that I am His daughter - and He will continue to be my Father. . . . forever!!
Until next time - hopefully soon, take care and blessings to each of you.

"He causes the grass to grow for the cattle, and vegetation for the labor of man, so that He may bring forth food from the earth......" Psalms 104:14

2011-07-07T17:07:00.000-06:00

Sometimes God surprises me! I never thought I would enjoy a garden because I have tried large gardens before and they are alot of work especially when it comes to weeding. I am not typically an outside person when it is hot unless I am in a swimming pool:-) I don't sweat much so I get over heated really easy. So, most of my time to work outside in the summer is early morning or evening.

But, this year my hubby and I planted a raised garden in a small plot. Now, this idea, that I saw in a magazine, was a stretch for him. "We have acres and acres of land around us and we are going to plant a garden in this small space?", he said. "Well, it's all about managing it," I replied, since I was the one who was going to be taking care of it. He has a huge sweet corn garden that he maintains mostly with farm equipment and irrigation water. That is about all he has time for in the summer with all the farm work. I love to flower garden but huge spaces filled with veggies is not my cup of tea.

Our little garden is soo cute! We have rows of lettuce, onions, green beans, peas, carrots and kohlrabi. Also some tomato and pepper plants and two hills of bush cucumbers! Everything is growing nicely and I am keeping the weeds down by putting mulch in the rows and around the plants. And I am actually enjoying it. I walk out there every morning to see how much it has grown and if there are any weeds popping their ugly heads up and if so, I just pull them by hand. (no hoe required - yes!!!) I am surprised by how much it grows in one day alone. It has been a true blessing to have this veggie patch in the yard of our country home.  Water is just a few feet away too!

We have enjoyed fresh lettuce in our dinner salads so far - it has been a long time since I have eaten lettuce grown in a home garden. I enjoy picking it and so far, no rabbits have discovered it! I can't wait to eat the fruit from the other plants.

When we planted the seeds it was just some dirt surrounded by wooden logs.   I know people have been doing this for ages but for me to see little seeds pop up from the rich earth and turn into plants was amazing to watch. And a reminder of how grand God has made the place we call home. He has really surprised me - I never thought I would enjoy a garden in a million years.

Planting, growing, harvesting. . . .is somewhat of a miracle my hubby and I decided as we glanced over fields of corn, sugar beets and dry edible beans all around us.  The very fact that man can plant a seed and it turns into a plant and then it becomes food for our bodies. God had a great plan when He formed this earth. And the miracle - well, perhaps it is something we take for granted too much.

How many times do I go to the grocery store not even giving it a thought where the food came from - who grew it or where it was grown? Someone else's labor has provided food for me many times over and God is the Head Gardener. Have I remembered to thank Him? To ask Him to bless those who provided it by their toil? Not often enough.

How about you? Have you thanked Him lately? Do you have a veggie garden and has God surprised you in any way lately?

"Great is the Lord and mighty in power; His understanding is infinite." Psalm147

2011-06-21T22:18:00.005-06:00

Lately, my understanding of why things happen as they do is being tested. I recently lost a dear friend who had plans to work with me on my music and had previously illustrated two children's books my daughter and I wrote. The books were distributed to every school in the state of Nebraska as part of an educational campaign for the Nebraska Dry Bean Commission. For awhile, my daughter Melissa, Randy and I toured and promoted the book and formed a company called Benjamin Bean Productions. But, eventually, other projects led each of us in different directions.

Randy was young - in his late 30's. I had just talked to him weeks before his death about how we could get together and explore ways to improve my musical compositions and submit them for publication and possibly put them on the Internet. Now, that will not be happening. Why did I tarry?

Randy was so brilliant in so many ways. And he was humble about it. He could write music in his head and pen it on paper - not just one instrument but many. Another Mozart in a sense. His artistic endeavors were amazing. The details he drew in the pages of our books could not go unnoticed - they were unique - some included bits of humor and imagination coupled with the reality of a true story.

He was getting closer all the time to being recognized for his talents - to get them out "there" so to speak and to share with more than just a few. In fact, I am confident he would have, if only he were still here on this earth.

It has been nearly a month now since he has passed into the arms of God. And I still find myself thinking of him. I just got most of my compositions recorded on CD and Randy was anxious to hear them and so willing to help me. I had been sitting on this project for ages. God has given me these melodies to share with others which I have done over the years as Randy did. But I know God wants me to do more. I keep dragging my feet.

But after Randy's passing, I was determined to do something with my music. I sent one song I wrote to a Gospel Music contest in Nashville. It's like, my tribute to him. His death was not in vain in just this one sense, for it got me going on my project. He would be so excited for me - he was just that way.

I don't understand why he had to die when he did. His future looked so bright even though he had been through lots of struggles in life. I felt God was refining him and preparing him for a greater work..

Now I think of him in heaven, playing his classical pieces for God on his guitar and drawing pictures of heaven. I have to trust in God's infinite wisdom. God knew it was Randy's time to be with Him. It doesn't make sense to me but it does to God. I must leave the questions, the whys in His hands and believe that He had a reason.

I look froward to seeing Randy in heaven some day. I was so happy to hear from one of his friends and former classmates who told me the story of how he had continually witnessed to him about the salvation of the Lord. And Randy had accepted Christ as his Savior.

I praise God for the hope He gives us all. Do you know Him as your Lord and Savior and do you plan to be in heaven one day? Life is fragile. Be sure you are headed in the right direction. I am so glad I decided to follow Jesus when I was a teen, many years ago. He has walked with me, carried me, and kept loving me even when I did not understand. Thank you Jesus.

And thank you that I had the opportunity to know Randy and to work with him on creative projects. It was truly a blessing. See you again some day friend!

"Sing to the Lord. . . . Who covers the heavens with clouds, Who provides rain for the earth, Who makes grass to grow on the mountains." Psalms 147

2011-05-15T19:10:00.006-06:00

Well, I have begun. Again. To plant grass seed in a very stubborn spot in our yard. I call it stubborn because last spring and summer I dug out all the weeds by hand, planted seed, watered, fertilized, pulled more weeds, treated it with herbicide. . . . trying to give the small grass shoots a chance to grow. But, the weeds eventually overtook it.

So, in the fall, I dug up all the weeds again. This time I requested a tiller from my hubby. He agreed and he tilled the soil for me and helped me spread seed. We watered and we waited but the stand was minimal. Turns out that I was the one who is stubborn!

The first time I walked to the spot this spring, I jokingly said to myself, "Here I am again - same spot, same weeds, only next year!" I asked God.,"What are you trying to teach me here? There has to be some lesson in all of this."

Since sod is not an option hubby says, I decided I would get some advice from a lawn expert before I even began. I quit being stubborn and I started to become wise - by asking for help!!!

Surprisingly, he said we had to get a different sprinkler first and foremost - one that is just like a gentle rain. Like God's :-) The walking one we had used is the worst, he said - it spreads too big of droplets on the ground, washing the seed away or disrupting growth. He also advised that I should water three times a day. I admit - I had not done that before and it is a very sunny spot. No herbicide until late summer either, he advised. I probably loaded that area with way to much of the stuff!!! I was determined to get those weeds! And he highly recommended a seed conducive to our area - "Tuff Turf".

So today, I planted a small spot and tomorrow I will continue - we had to remove weeds first though and prepare the soil. If God sends some rain, well, that would be wonderful - I won't have to be dragging hoses and moving the sprinklers around every day.
If only I had asked a professional last year I could have avoided a lot of work, time and money. God gives us helpers along the way - we only need to ask.

As I reflect upon this experience, there are other spiritual insights to gain. These are just a few: (1) Read His Word to gain wisdom on how to live - He's the expert! (2) Let the Son shine His light on every situation- you need spiritual vitamins to stay healthy. (3) You'll have less sin (weeds) to deal with if you let His living water flow through your soul -ask for forgiveness and/or forgive at least three times a day. Or 70 times seven:-) He'll gently wash those sins away and make you clean inside! (4) Ask for His help through prayer - how many times do we do it our way only to find out there was a better way. . . . . if we had only asked, only listened.

Which brings to mind another experience I had this week. While driving home after doing errands in town, I saw a boy - probably around 11 or 12 - walking along the sidewalk and he was quite upset. Every once in awhile he would stop, throw his bike, growling deeply, his face as red as an apple. He would walk a short distance - only to toss his bike a few feet in the air again. His angry expression and growls continued all the while. I thought to myself - I think something must be wrong with his bike and he is really mad that he has to walk home, backpack and all.

A storekeeper stepped outside her shop as she heard the deep growling which sounded more like an animal than a boy. She hurriedly went back inside. I decided to drive around the block to see if I could help. I stopped my car near him in a parking lot, rolled down the window and asked him if he needed help. Perhaps I could load his bike and drive him home. That kind of thing. I was afraid he would hurt himself or someone else. But he only glanced at me and growled louder. And he kept walking.

I asked the Lord, "What should I do?" Light bulb moment. . . . . .This is obviously a situation I am not capable of handling. Someone with experience and knowledge of such a dramatic and unusual response needed to help him and it wasn't me. I prayed for the boy. But that didn't seem enough.

Then I called 911. After giving them the location and what was happening, they said they would take care of it. I was so relieved.

Then I reflected abit . . . . . . . what if I had gotten out of the car and he had reacted in a way that would have hurt both of us or someone else? Or what if he had accepted my ride, only to throw a fit and cause an accident? The "what ifs" just flowed through my mind. I was so glad I listened to the Lord's leading. And thankful that someone who knew what they were doing and how to handle such situations was there to help him.

So, lately, I think the Lord is teaching me a few things. Of course, He will continue to teach me - life is a growth process. I am glad He is with me. My times are in His hands and I rejoice they are!!

Have you had any growing experiences lately?

"But thanks be to God! For through what Christ has done, He has triumphed over us so that now whevever we go, He uses us to tell others about the Lord and to spread the Gospel like a sweet perfume." 2 Corinthians 2:14 LB

2011-05-03T22:40:00.003-06:00

As I write this, I am listening to the recordings of the first three CDs I recorded recently - the fourth is soon to come. Now I must ask my Lord for direction on how to share these melodies and lyrics that are all about Him!

My husband just came in from the field - he's been planting corn today. He sat in our kitchen and listened to a few of them. Although most of them have lyrics, this first set does not include the vocals. That is another project all its own. It was interesting that he could describe what the song was about by just listening to the melody- I was astounded actually.

Through the years I have shared them in various churches, at home with family, and for a community celebration. At one time I led a children's choir who sang some of the songs God has graciously given me. My older sister Marilyn, who is a soprano, sometimes sang my songs for special services as did other "sisters in Christ". My daughter Melissa and I have sung my compositions together - i.e - on Christmas Eve and for a pastor's ordination service. Both were special experiences!

Sunday school students who are now adults learned them years ago in VBS and Sunday School opening exercises. They also performed songs I wrote for a Christmas musical - my friend had written the play and speaking parts and I then added the lyrics and melodies - it was a great time! Thanks Lord:-)

Just recently, one precious child of God beautifully sang one melody for our congregation. Another blessing to count.

God has been good. But I sense He wants me to do more with this music He has given to me through the power of the Holy Spirit. I certainly did not write them on my own! And they are to share - to spread these melodies like perfume for they are full of messages from God!

There are so many ways I could go - produce a CD on my own, which has become very popular and is not hard to do but could be expensive. Go the publishing route - send query letters and samples of my music to possible music agents and/or publishers to get the music in song books, hymnals, or whatever the Lord may have in mind.

I know there are some who have started a ministry using music God has given them - two such people have been to our church. That may be an option. However, the thing is, I am not the best soloist in the world - the piano is my voice and my expression of love for God. I would need a traveling singer:-)

One thing for sure, I do not want to bring glory to myself in any way. But give God the glory and the honor. My picture will not be on any CD - in fact, I have an 11 year old granddaugther who just may be able to design a label for me:-) Wouldn't that be awesome?

My mission is to share the Gospel so that others may know Him as Lord and Savior. My prayer is that the notes I play will touch souls, will bless people; calm, uplift and encourage them and to help them feel the presence of the One who loves them so.

I have a huge responsibility to my Savior if this music should go out into the world at large. And I will guard what He has given me well - the music must be included in Biblical based material or published/used by a solid Christian organization or company- unwavering in their core values, Christian principles and devotion and love for God.

Right now, I have some ideas but no real sure sense of what direction to take or where to go for assistance. I feel abit overwhelmed. But I know God knows and has a plan. I only need listen and watch for open doors.

Please pray I will be open to His leading.

Thanks for visiting my post. I wish I could share at least one of my songs with you on this blog - perhaps my computer expert daughter can help me with that one!

Melodic Blessings to each of you this week.

Where will the melodies God has given me bloom?

"Let not your heart be troubled. You are trusting God, now trust in me." John 14:1

2011-04-22T02:11:00.001-06:00

As I reflect upon worship services I have attended through the years to celebrate the Resurrection of my Lord and Savior, many memories come to mind.

While raising our family, there were many Easter Sunrise services we attended early in the morning - it wasn't easy getting up from a warm toasty bed only to be greeted by a dark, cold morning. And waking up three children to accompany us was kind of a hassle. But, I don't think there was ever a time when we were not blessed by attending one and were so glad we had taken the time to remember what the Lord had done for us.

Some sunrise services we attended were just down the road from our farm. On a grassy hilltop stood an old rugged wooden cross our neighbor and brother in Christ had made and placed there. It was a perfect location because just as the sun rose, it peeked over the hill and shone on all of us believers standing near the cross - as if we were bathed in the light of the Lord himself.

Wrapped up in blankets and stocking caps, we worshipped the Lord on that hilltop. We sang hymns, we listened to the Word, prayed and took communion. Some sat on straw bales, or lawn chairs and others stood. There was a brief message to ponder and sometimes special music, readings or skits.

Two particular services at this spot stand out in my mind. One included a reenactment of Christ carrying the cross up the steep hill - accompanied by some powerful dramatic music. It was very touching because a few men from the church struggled to carry the heavy structure - none of them could carry it alone. They had to help one another to get it to the top. But they would not give up - they got it to crest of the hill and positioned it in the dirt - it was hard work. And it was just a tiny glimpse of what Jesus chose to endure to carry out His Father's mission. . . . for you and for me. The whole scene brought tears to my eyes.

Why? First of all, their determination reflected God's love for us and their devotion to the Lord and one another. What if they would not have made it and gave up? But they didn't and neither did God. He did send His only Son to die for us so that anyone who believes in Him will be saved and not perish. And Jesus willingly carried out His Father's mission even though He could have asked a thousand angels to rescue Him from the pain and agony. But He chose not to. Have you ever thought about that?

Second, as I watched the men strain and labor, I thought of how that struggle reflects men's battle with sin And how Jesus who was without sin, took the sins of the world upon Himself, so that we could be forgiven and not have to wrestle with sin alone. In fact, we can be free from the strife sin can cause if we can give it to Christ and leave it there. That is sometimes a challenge but Jesus is there for us. And once we believers reach eternity - no more sin at all - how wonderful that will be!

Finally, when the men from our church finally reached the top, the great reflection of our Lord's victory over sin and death - the fact that the cross was empty made an enormous impression. He was no longer hanging on a cross or in a tomb - He had risen from the dead and was no longer there. In fact, through the power of the Holy Spirit, He was right there with us - amazing!

Another touching service at this same location was when we wrote down sins or burdens we were struggling with on small pieces of paper. Then we were given nails and each one of us nailed those paper notes to the cross, believing that God would give us the strength to overcome them, to be forgiven and have a fresh start. Literally giving our burdens to God. As I reflect upon that, I think a sense of peace came over the group as one by one, they gave their troubles to the Lord. We left those notes on that cross and only God knew what they said.

After each service, we all joined together for a warm breakfast back at the farm house - it was wonderful fellowship and a time of rejoicing. All because of what Christ did for us and the promise of eternal life in heaven one day! Praise and thank you Jesus!

These are just a few of the experiences I have had. What reflections do you have of past Resurrection Sundays?

God's reflection of our heavenly hope in a cross shaped pole of foilage.

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"Wake up, O harp and lyre! We will meet the dawn with song." Psalms 108

2011-04-08T21:18:00.001-06:00

It has been said that "music touches the soul like nothing else" and also "music is the same in any language." That is so true! I, for one, am so thankful God gave us this marvelous blessing in this temporary place we call home.

Have you ever noticed how the music you listen to or play affects your mood? This is how deeply it affects the human soul, your body, and feelings. In fact, there have been studies done on how music can calm an anxious or depressed spirit much like David's playing of the harp comforted a distressed Saul. A melodic flow of notes from the scale can actually help bring relief from physical pain or help one sleep. Pretty remarkable!

Music certainly plays an important role in my life's journey. It's been a part of my life since I was a child, as my mother played the piano by ear and she made the keyboard on our old upright piano come alive and fill our household with music! These are fond memories!

And it probably made more of an impact on me than I realized. Now, for example, if I am struggling to exercise, whether it be simple walking or riding a stationery bike, if I turn on my CD player and listen to upbeat music, it definitely makes a positive difference. My body seems to get more energized, I feel like moving and before I know it, 30 minutes or more have passed. Silence in this case, would make my exercise session drag and a 15-minute ride would seem like an hour! But if walking, there is one exception- when strolling through nature - songbirds chirping among the trees can offer quite abit of inspiration to take more steps than you may have planned.

I can be driving to town and listening to a favorite CD - most classical music just soothes my soul and I am one relaxed, calm driver. The miles just fly by. The sky looks more blue, the sun is more bright and the world outside my car windows seems so peaceful. I even look forward to running errands that I might otherwise dread.

Bluegrass and Irish upbeat music can make me feel like dancing as does some rock and roll. If I listen to hard rock, I feel chaotic inside and beyond uncomfortable. Love and Gospel songs with meaningful words stick in my memory bank - each word, each note, bringing feelings to the surface that were perhaps hidden before.

Some music makes me excited, other compositions, sadden my heart - even bringing tears to my eyes. Still there are melodies that just bring an instant smile to my face and joy to my soul. Some songs from the past spark memories.

I have, with the help of God, written quite abit of music over the years. Right now I am in the process of recording it on CD. Some of the songs I composed on the piano were during difficult struggles I was experiencing at that time in my life - you can hear the sadness and strife in the melody lines. Others are happy and upbeat when days were brighter. Some are simple lullaby's that I sang to my babies (now all in their 30's) . Many are songs I wrote for Sunday School kids and children's choirs to sing, with catchy rhythms. And they tell about the love of the Lord and God's plan of salvation via tunes and lyrics.

There is one particular instrumental I have written that has brought tears to more than one person who has listened to it as I play it on the piano or clavinova. Those notes and how I express them on the ivory and ebony are touching souls in a special way. I would say this is through the power of the Holy Spirit - who worked through me to compose the melodies in the first place. I give Him all the glory!

It is definitely true that music can define our mood for the day, the hour, or even the minute. Next time you watch a movie, listen to the music and what an impact it has on the storyline and on you. Imagine a scene with different music or no background score at all. It is a real eye opener!

Let's face it - music is one of the most awesome gifts our Heavenly Father has given us. It is powerful. And it influences us when we do not even realize it. That is why it is important to listen to music that is good for the soul and what God would want us to listen to.

I used to emphasize this fact to my Senior High Sunday School students and our youth group who are exposed to music probably more than any other age group. Our brain does not forget what we hear and without even realizing it, it is planted in our conscious. For example, think of commercials - I can repeat several words and jingles from radio or television word for word just from listening to them day after day.

Some music and lyrics are not the best for our moral convictions - we have to be aware and make good choices. Choices God would want us to make. Not en easy thing to do when the radio is blaring in our car stereos. And some of what is "out there" is okay and other music is "of this world" and does not honor our Lord. It is so important to make good choices - and feed nourishing music to our precious souls and minds.

Something to reflect upon. . . . . can you imagine the world without music? What would it be like? And what kind of music lifts your heart? What kind of music will you choose this week?

"Guard my words as your most precious possession. Write them down and also keep them deep within your heart." Proverbs 7:2

2011-03-31T19:24:00.002-06:00

As I reflect, God is giving us wise advice in this portion of Scripture; it could also be understood as a command from our loving Lord for us to obey. Even a warning, perhaps.

According to Webster, the word guard, as used in this context, means to protect or defend. Some other synonyms include to shield, shelter, to watch over, keep safe, preserve, save and secure.

I have found in this day and age, that the language of our culture and the teachings of some Christian resources challenge us to apply this precious counsel more than ever before.

In my 50 plus years on this earth, swear words that flow from the mouths of people of all ages has changed dramatically- both among Christians and non-Christians. When I was a young girl, growing up in the 1950s and 1960s, tolerance for swearing was low.  I remember adults threatening to wash out their children's mouth with soap if a cuss word was even uttered from their lips. If in school, you were sent to the principal's office. And no teacher ever spoke in like manner. Profanity was simply not allowed on television shows or in movies.

Spin ahead to 2011 and those same words are tolerated by the public at large and the thought of punishment seems lost in the corridors of our minds. I am confident there are Christian believers out there who are still "guarding" the word of the Lord and the principles He teaches. Yay for them!!!!! Because today, it takes courage and fortitude to be different, as Christ instructs us to be. In Matthew 5 He said,"You are the salt of the earth; but if your salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned?""

Some may call me old fashioned and not up to date on the latest trends in cultural language development. I am solid in my convictions and content to rely on the Word of God and not those of professors and researchers (who have studied the world and people He made but for a brief time). If I were in a college language logistics class, I would probably not agree with what they call logical/reasonable conclusions. Just from my recent research, around 20 references in the Holy Scriptures proclaim swearing is a sin. Period. Using God's name in vain is probably the most noted but certainly not the only one.

Along this same vein of thinking, guarding God's word's as your most precious possession has many other benefits. Just having it in your thought processes is remarkable ! And it is amazing to me how the Holy Spirit brings a verse to mind at just the right moment - to comfort, to give counsel, to remind me of God's abiding presence and love or perhaps to help minister to a friend in need. It is indeed a precious treasure to have within oneself - the very Word of God. Think of it!! Reflect upon this reality.

It is also a helpful and important tool in this day and age. I have become more keenly aware of this fact in the past ten years. The Holy Spirit has warned me many times. And because I have some knowledge of what the Scriptures teach, red flags pop up in my head, so to speak, when I hear or see something that just doesn't fit with what God teaches. Unfortunately, during one such experience, those warnings came about in a Christian atmosphere. I heard swearing and I heard sermons that were not based on Biblical facts but on men's ideas. It grieved my soul greatly and was hard on my faith.

For some reason, some believers think we must move ourselves into the world's value system in order to reach others for Christ. We must become like them, entertain them, feed them, let them color our world instead of us coloring theirs. That simply is not true and not Biblical at all. I believe a swaying from God is happening more and more in our society. And thus the warning - "guard my words as your most precious possession."

Last week I was preparing a Sunday School lesson for middle-aged children. The curriculum seemed Christian based. Once I got to digging into the lesson I realized the author had written something - a concept the entire lesson was based on - but it was not found in the Bible. I researched several versions of the Bible, along with footnotes, to distinguish this error. I believe the Holy Spirit was also helping me. I struggled for hours over this lesson. Finally, with much relief, I decided not to teach it - for it was not based on the truth. My point being? Check out what is "out there" against the teachings of the Scripture. Guard what God has given us. Stick to the truth like glue!!!

I believe we, as followers of Christ, must be alert, educated, filled with the Holy Spirit and courageous in the days to come. God knew. That is why He included such wisdom in His Word. He knew we would need it in what some Christians are proclaiming are the last days.

There are some signs of what the Bible foretells as the last days of the earth as we know it. But I truly do not know if we are living in that time - only God knows. I leave it in His hands.

In the meantime, I am on guard. Reflect upon this verse as you walk with Christ, your Lord and Savior."Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but be a new and different person with a fresh newness in all you do and think." Romans 12:2a

p.s. And some encouragement -  "Don't hide your light, let it shine for all." - words of Jesus as noted in Matthew 5

Remember . . . . . . .God is with us!

What are your reflections on this topic?

Love Is An Everlasting Melody. . . . . . . . .

2011-02-23T18:09:00.012-07:00

"You shall love the Lord your God will all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might." Deuteronomy 6:5

This rock formation is as if God drew lines down
its' side with His pencil. What does that tell us about God?

(c) 2011 Carole S. Amateis-Lebruska

I've Never Been To Heaven

No, I've never been to heaven
But I see Him every day!
He is always here beside me,
And He listens when I pray.

I can see Him in the flowers,
I can see Him in the trees,
I can see Him in a sunset
In the soft and flowing breeze.
(C) 2011 Carole Amateis-Lebruska

Reflections of God are all around us. As I think of those aspects of life that I love, I realize that what I love reflects the character of my Father in Heaven. And thus my love for Him. This is a sample of a few of my loves. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I love........the fresh, clean smell after a gentle falling rain

a sunflower's bright shade of yellow

tiny birds gathered around a frosty birdbath to get a drink

squirrels playing chase in our big black walnut tree

the laughter of children

breathing in the fresh scent of sheets dried on the clothesline

puffy white picture clouds tucked in a baby blue sky

a gentle snowfall displaying huge, defined snowflakes

the smile of another, and then returning ita giant orange harvest moon

the first signs of spring, budding trees, green grass, blooming tulips

tomatoes and sweet corn fresh from the garden

divine melodies played on an instrument

reading words actually written by God

my family and my brothers and sisters in Christ

the wonder and innocence in a baby's eyes

a hug from a family member or friend

the sound of a thunder storm and the flash of lightning

a wooden cross as the focal point of a church sanctuary

the sight of a radiant rainbow after a summer shower

communicating with God, family, friends and strangers

pretty horses grazing on the prairie

the soothing sound of birds singing from the treetops

smelling fresh baked bread made from the fruit of the earth

crickets chirping, frogs croaking on a summer's night

the black velvet fur of a new born calf

shelter from the cold, and when it is hot; cool breezes and shade

These are just some of the things in life that I love that also reflect my Lord and who He is.

What/whom do you love? And how does each one reflect God?

HAPPY REFLECTING!

(c) Carole Amateis-Lebruska 2011

"Sing a new song to the Lord! Sing it everywhere around the world! Sing out His praises! Bless His name. Each day tell someone that He saves." Psalms 96:1-2

2011-01-22T00:56:00.002-07:00

I have set a goal for the New Year - a goal I have been wanting to achieve for some time - to record all the compositions I have written on CDs. I have a source that has willingly agreed to help me at a minimal charge - for which I am soooo grateful. I started the project this month and I am finding that it will probably take longer than I expected.

With over 60 songs written - some with lyrics and some not, I am familiar with most but some series of notes are lost in my memory bank. After all, some were composed when my children were babies - I used to sing some of the tunes to them as I rocked them to sleep. Precious memories! Now all three of them have become adults and are in their 30s! My how "time flies", as the saying goes.

Through the years, I have shared the tunes with fellow Christians at numerous churches - some in Sunday School, others for VBS, others were used as solos or duets during worship. Some are Christmas songs written for a musical. A couple were used for calls to worship. God has been good.

But it seems He is tapping me on the shoulder and telling me - "Get with it servant, it is time to get them out in the world so more will know Me." Following my recent birthday, I realized my life on this earth is limited even if I live to be 100 - unlikely. I am getting older, how much time God has planned for me to stay here is not known - I must get this done before I leave and am heaven bound. And I must have faith that God will lead me to a publisher.

The featured photo on this blog posting is the actual piano where I have written songs for nearly 40 years. It is very precious to me. Through the power of the Holy Spirit, I have been able to put notes together in my head and move my fingers on the ivory and ebony keys, creating glorious melodies. Songs that tell about the love of God, His plan of salvation and teach Biblical principles.

I am still writing melodies to this day. How do I achieve this? Only through Him Who has graciously given me this gift and so, there is no question - I give Him all the glory and honor for without Him, it would not be possible. Most of the melodies are in my memory bank - some are written down on paper and some on cassette tapes. Now, my goal is to get them categorized and on CD.

I pray I will stay focused and accomplish it early this year. Please pray I will be able to do this.

Are their any gifts God has given you to share with others on this earth? If so, how are you doing with your God-given mission? Could you use some prayer too? Let me know:-)

Melodic Blessings To Each of you!

The greatest of these is love

2010-12-22T13:50:00.001-07:00

". . . We can see and understand only a little about God now, as if we were peering at his reflection is a poor mirror; but someday we are gong to see Him in His completeness, face to face, now all that I know is hazy and blurred but then I will see everything clearly, just as clearly as God sees into my heart right now.

There are three things that remain - faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love."

I Corinthians 13: 12-13.

Yesterday I sat down at my kitchen table where my advent wreath sits before baking cookies and making candy to celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior. I lit each candle, one stood for joy, another peace, another hope and the last one, love.

I opened my Bible to read the devotion for the day. As I glanced at the candles, I noticed they were all brightly burning except the one that stood for love. It was having a hard time producing a flame. I thought, perhaps I should blow it out and start again, but I decided to leave it as it was for awhile.

I read my devotion which was all about love. It said, as different as we all are, God loves us all the same. The writer emphasized that God's love is eternal - unconditional, even loving us when we commit sin and willing to forgive. His love is limitless and far beyond what we human beings can comprehend or understand.

The devotion noted loving others as God loves us and that those around us should see Christ in us because of how we love and who we are.

As I read, I glanced at the love candle - it was still struggling to stay lit. This does not represent God's love I thought to myself. But I still let it be.

I began to pray - thanking God for His Word, asking for forgiveness, praying for others and praising God for his wonderful love.

When I opened my eyes from my prayer time, I looked at the love candle once more. A smile radiated from my lips. There it stood, the pink Christ Child candle. Glowing brightly - bringing even more light into my surroundings than before. It was like God was saying, "Yes, my love is strong. You can count on my love. It is a love that will glow inside you when hard days come or when you are feeling joyful. My love will love you in spite of your sinfulness. My love is so great that I sent my only begotten Son so that you could have eternal life.

A simple reflection from a simple candle on a wooden advent wreath. But it touched my heart a lot and was a great way to begin my Christmas baking in my quaint farm kitchen.

Thank you Lord for this blessing I said, as I completed my special time with Him.:-)

And then I pondered, do people see God's love in me as Christ's child? It was another way to prepare my heart for the celebration of His divine birth.

May you experience God's wonderful, awesome LOVE this Christmas and throughout the New Year and may others see Christ in you:-)

Spiritual preparation for Christmas

2010-12-02T19:25:00.004-07:00

This Good News tells us that God makes us ready for heaven - makes us right in God's sight - when we put our faith and trust in Christ to save us. This is accomplished from start to finish by faith." - Romans 1:17

Advent was introduced to our family by a dear Baptist pastor at a quaint church in Western Nebraska. According to Webster it is derived from the Latin word adventus which means "a coming". The use of the advent wreath can be traced to the German Christians of the 1500s and is still used in many churches and homes across our nation.

When my three precious kids were growing up, we would have an advent service each week around our dining room table -the advent wreath we used is in this photo. The first purple candle was lit four Sundays before the celebration of Christ's birth, then a second the next week, a third was added and finally the beautiful rose candle shone bright on Christmas morn. It stood for the coming of Christ Jesus and our promise of salvation through Him.

Each week we did something different to prepare our hearts for the celebration of Christmas during this family time together. We read devotions about hope, joy, peace, love and faith. We prayed together. Once we each drew pictures related to His coming and shared them with each other, another time we made Jesus a birthday cake complete with green and red jello. And we always included the reading of Scriptures and sometimes sung a song:-) Dad and the guys weren't too keen about the music but they participated. These special times kept our eyes on Jesus with all the activity and commercialism about us.

Now my kids are adults and on their own. I pray they remember the advent wreath and how it helped us bring Christ into clear focus among the presents, lights, programs, and yummy food. I hope they use one in their own homes.

Today, I still prepare myself spiritually for Christmas. I open my Bible, I read a devotion (my booklet from my church is helpful), I light a candle and I pray. It is a gentle reminder of what Christmas is all about and I need that, how about you?

If you have not prepared your heart yet and would like to start - begin with an Advent Wreath. You can make your own or buy one at your local Christian book store. They may also have a selection of advent books or devotions to use along with your Bible, of course.

Blessings to you as you keep Christ in "Christmas"!

God's Wonderful Provisions

2010-10-18T15:23:00.003-06:00

"Let the earth burst forth with every sort of grass and seed-bearing plant, and fruit trees with seeds inside the fruit, so that these seeds will reproduce the kinds of plants and fruits they came from. And so it was, and God was pleased." Genesis 1:11-12

I have recently found myself spending more time in the kitchen preserving veggies from the garden. We have had a late fall - no freezing temps yet - so the produce is still quite tasty, like this bowl full of fresh tomatoes!

Some of the goodies we have enjoyed include sweet corn, tomatoes, red beets, carrots, green beans, cantaloupe, squash and watermelon - either from our garden or those of neighbors. God has been good with His wonderful provisions!

This summer I started a diet to help lose weight and lower my cholesterol. And I am learning how to eat a different way. A better way. Do you realize we can eat items that have no food value whatsoever for our bodies? There are lots of products sitting on shelves in our supermarkets that we buy and eat - that actually are not good for our bodies.

My doctor gave me a wake up call when he said "To work off just one of those chocolates that don't melt in your hand - just one - you would have to run as fast as you can the length of a football field as if your life depended on it." I don't know if it is factual but he got his point across. I think twice now before I eat dessert. How many miles should I walk to work off these calories I didn't need or how many minutes do I want to spin on my stationery bike?

I don't think I have ever eaten as many veggies and fruits as I have the past few months. Now, when I head to the grocery store, I stop at the produce section first - although the bakery is really tempting at times. My husband especially loves fruit so this has helped my change in lifestyle. And I have discovered that they are quite good and filling. Red, yellow and orange peppers are delightful in salad, blueberries are a nice addition to my oat cereal and I eat an orange each evening. I have a feeling my body is rejoicing!!!

Of course, God knows all this food is good for our bodies - after all, He made us and He made the food. No preservatives, no added chemicals, a good balanced diet that is not out of a box but right from the earth itself. But, I also think we can enjoy those sweet treats in moderation. My husband raises sugar beets so I thought it good to include that last line!

At any rate, I praise and thank the Lord for what He has provided for us. I think sometimes we take our nourishment for granted. So, as the harvest continues of God's bountiful supplies, let us all remember. . . . . . .He created certain foods for us so we could live healthier lives.

Not surprising really - just another reflection of God's love for His people.

The marvelous work of the Holy Spirit

2010-07-20T23:41:00.005-06:00

"Fix your thoughts on what is true and good and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely and dwell on the fine good things in others. Think about all you can praise God for and be glad about. Keep putting into practice all you learned from me and saw me doing and the God of peace will be with you." Philippians 4

It was a simple sermon full of important tidbits to remember and colored with humor bringing laughter from the congregation. And it stuck with me like honey after I walked out the church doors. Little did I know that the Holy Spirit was at work and would be using that sermon later that day in a conversation with my friend who lived miles away.

She had been depressed that day and saddened in her spirit, retreating to a dark bedroom with fans running to keep her cool and hot chocolate to warm her spirit. I had seen her post on Facebook when I returned home after church. As soon as I saw it, I knew. I heard the Lord calling and I knew I had to go. A simple note or email on the Internet would not be enough.

At first she did not answer her door - I feared she was not home. But just as I was about to leave a note on her door, there she stood. Inviting me in, I prayed the Lord would give me the right words to say.

We talked about alot that afternoon in her quaint living room full of memories, character and parts yet to be remodeled. I listened more than I usually do. That was good because she needed to get it out. To express what was bothering her.

Eventually, I shared with her what the pastor had talked about that morning during church. Some simple steps for living. (1) Focus on the positive when something negative happens. Don't repeat it and get it further etched in your mind and in the minds of others. The more you talk about it, think about it, the more it gets ingrained in your mind and the more down you feel. God does not desire this for His children. (2) Forgive others and yourself - sin can be like a tick on your body growing bigger the longer we hold on to it - get rid of it, toss it aside and stomp on it. Free yourself and the other person from the sin and forgive - even if they do not ask for forgiveness. (3) Everyday, write down three positive things in your life to be thankful for and meditate on them. Thank God for each one. There are blessings all around us - all we need to do is open our eyes and see, let them soak into our brain cells. And finally. (4) Think of one thing to increase your joy - many times that involves serving Him, reaching out to someone or perhaps just taking a walk through nature, viewing His awesome creation.

After I had shared this, she said to me, "I feel so much better," a smile emerged from her lips and from mine too. Who knew that sermon would reach my friend's heart? The Lord did and the Holy Spirit directed me to her door that day.

I call this a "God Thing". It is the marvelous work of the Holy Spirit and I have experienced it many times. Watch for Him. . . . listen to Him. . . . Serve Him when He calls. You will experience that true joy He talks about.

Have you had any experiences like this?

Blessings to you!

Fertilizer and Spiritual Vitamins

2010-04-07T13:35:00.003-06:00

"But grow in spiritual strength and become better acquainted with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ." 2 Peter 3:18

I applied fertilizer to our grass this morning while there was a bit of moisture about. Spreading elements of plant food such as nitrogen, zinc, phosphorus, iron, potassium and sulfur will help the grass grow, stay healthy, keep weeds from spouting and provide a beautiful lawn that will bring us joy!

And typically, I began to reflect. . . . . . you know, applying this fertilizer is a lot like reading God's Word and applying it to our minds, souls and bodies. It like taking spiritual vitamins into our very beings. And of course, the moisture can be compared to the living water Christ provides. And the sun - to the light He shines into our spirits every day!

If we read the Scriptures on a regular basis - daily is best - we will continue to grow spiritually and establish a strong relationship with the God who made us and loves us so. We will stay healthy as Christians, taking in wisdom, guidance, love and joy. Sin will be less likely to take root in our mind and souls - just like a healthy lawn has less room for weeds to grow, our hearts will have less room for sin to take root.

Yet, that is not to say the desire to do wrong, make bad choices, or the temptation to be disobedient to our Lord will be no more. Just like a troublesome weed can be found sprouting in a grassy slab of earth, so sin can enter our lives.

As the gardener of our yard, if we watch for those weeds, we can easily pull them from the rich earth. God is like our gardener and He's given us a helper too.

The Holy Spirit within us - the great comforter and protector! He warns and alerts us when danger is near, reminds us of what we know to be the truth and brings verses of Scripture to mind. God may also send a Christan brother or sister to help us stand steady in any struggle we may face which would turn us from the Son and God's will for our lives. But we do have to do our part. Listen!

Just as the grass receives the rain and water from a sprinkler, we must allow our Lord to provide us with His living water. The assurance of eternal life through Him, victory over sin death, hope for a better tomorrow and the strength to carry on whatever we may face in life.

And remember that joy I mentioned that we receive from a beautiful green yard? A unique, divine joy is present inside us and radiates to others when we take in our spiritual vitamins - some say they can actually see Christ in us!

There are other ways to take in spiritual vitamins too. Here are a few to ponder: (1) Fellowship with other believers (2) Worship the Lord (3) Pray to the Lord (4) Serve Him wherever you are with the gifts He has given you (4) Care for others as Christ cares for you.

If you're like me, this takes some discipline and some effort. Some times I do great, other times not so good. I get abit sluggish and then I remember. . . . . did I take any spiritual vitamins today?

Have you taken any spiritual vitamins into your soul today or this week? If so, do you have an experience you'd like to share.

Washing dishes clean. . . . . a reflection of how Jesus washes us clean as well.

2010-03-19T11:08:00.010-06:00

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

1 John 1:9

How many times have I washed dishes during my lifetime I complained as I put my dry hands in the hot dishwater once more this morning. I wondered. . . . how many? Countless. As I washed the sink full of dirty dishes once again I reflected. Over and over I have washed dishes, cups, bowls, pans, glasses and silverware clean. Yet, I won't give up, I'll keep washing them as long as I am able.

As I scrubbed, I reflected. . . . it's kind of like Jesus washing me clean from my sins - over and over again.These dirty dishes are alot like us when we sin, I thought. Yet, He doesn't give up on us, nor will he ever. When we ask for forgiveness, he washes us clean from our shortcomings, our failures, our choices to do things we shouldn't.

And just like a dirty plate once soiled with leftover food now shines like new, so do our hearts, souls and minds. We glow when we're forgiven. It's a wonderful feeling to be forgiven, to be cleansed by the Lord.

Then, I reflected upon some of the times Jesus forgave when he was on earth.

Three come to mind at this particular Holy season. In the book of John, chapters 18 through 21, we learn of how Jesus forgave Peter, a disciple that truly loved the Lord. But he denied Him three times during Jesus' trial. Jesus forgave him and Peter later became "the rock" of the early church as Jesus Himself had proclaimed. He spread the Gospel to unforgiven sinners and later wrote 1 and 2 Peter we read in the Holy Scriptures today. How might the story have ended if Jesus had not forgiven his beloved disciple?

The second account about Jesus forgiving another is the one about the criminal on the cross. A suffering sinless Christ had mercy on a sinner who turned to Christ for forgiveness. The condemned man believed Jesus could save him. It was faith that saved this man who hung in shame beside the Son of God. And is proof that our deeds do not save us.

The third example is astounding in many ways. We read about it in Luke 23, verse 34. "Father forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing," Jesus said, as He hung on the cross, suffering, bleeding, feeling rejected and alone. To me, this shows how powerful and yet how kind and gentle the love and mercy of Christ really is. And to take it a step further, demonstrated His understanding of what it means to be a human being.

Upon further reflection, there is a verse familiar to many about forgiveness. In Matthew, Peter asks Jesus, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and I forgive him? Up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times but up to seventy times seven."

Have I washed my dishes clean seventy times seven - I am not sure. But I think what Jesus was saying was to forgive many times - too many times to count. That's how many times you forgive. Has He not done that for us?

Next time you find yourself complaining about washing dishes, think about how many times Jesus has washed your sins away and not complained. And be thankful He does!

p.s. There's one important difference to note however. Some day, we may not be able to wash dishes anymore and make them clean because of poor health. But Jesus is unchanging, remaining firm and strong for us. He is there to forgive if we confess our sins, ask for forgiveness and believe He truly can make us white as snow".

By the way, we have snow on the ground today too - that's a whole other reflection:-)

Christmas music in March

2010-03-04T17:40:00.014-07:00

"It is good to give thanks to the Lord . And to sing praises to Your name, O Most High; To declare Your loving kindness in the morning and your faithfulness by night, with the ten-stringed lute and with the harp, with resounding music upon the lyre." Psalms 92: 1-3

It is March and I am listening to Christmas music:-) And it is delightful!

It all started when my daughter posted on Facebook that today is Vavaldi's birthday. I thought I would search for some of his compositions among my classical CD collection. In a set of three compact discs, there it was. . . . my long lost "Olde English Christmas" CD that I have been trying to find for years - years, I tell you! In haste, I suppose, I had placed it in the collection. I just had to listen to it - I can't wait until December!

Easter is approaching - the time when we remember what Christ accomplished for us on that old rugged cross. And a time to rejoice that He arose from death, victorious over sin and the grave! He provided a way for each of us to have eternal life if we confess our sins and accept Him as our Savior!

Listening to Christmas songs brings the beginning of the story into focus. . . . how the journey to the cross began in a manger. And somehow, as I drink in the happy melodies into my soul at this time of the year - rather than at Christmas - they seem to take on even more meaning.

As I reflect, I ask myself why. Perhaps it is because at Christmas time here on this earth the celebration of Christ's birth is not all that it should be. It is so commercialized, so full of Santa Claus and his reindeer, things to do, presents to buy, trees to decorate and etc and etc. So not focused on Christ really - except for Christmas Eve services, Biblical themed Christmas cards and nativity scenes dotting the landscape. We struggle each year to keep Christ in Christmas.

Easter has its bunnies, eggs and new born chicks signifying new life - even though some may not make the connection, it is there. Christ came to life again and gives us new life - new beginnings and a new body after death free from sin and pain.

I never thought I would hear myself say this, but as I reflect. . . . . . it is refreshing to listen to Christmas music at Easter time. It brings joy to my heart in all its fullness. Because Christ was born, lived among men, suffered and died on a cross for our sins and rose again. . . . . . . well, think about it. . . . . . . it is a great time to rejoice. Hallelujah!

Thank you Jesus. I love you dearly.

Have you ever listened to Christmas music in the spring?

Merry Easter to each of you:-)

Creative blessings from my Father's World. . . . . . . . .

2010-02-24T16:11:00.006-07:00

"O Lord, how many are Your works!
In wisdom You have made them all;
The earth is full of Your possessions."
Psalm 104:24

After days of cold temps and falling snow, today the sun warmed the earth and I rejoiced! This morning the uniquely shaped icicles hanging from the roof of our farm cottage caught my eye. I said to myself, "I must get out there and capture them on film before they melt!"

As it turned out, my timing was almost perfect. The sun was shining on the icy waterfalls frozen in time, reflecting God's handiwork. One particular ice sculpture had formed as a tornado from the drain gutter near the roof line. It nearly touched the ground and was awesome!

Others were smaller but were formed as if by the wind itself - like a flag waving in the breeze, their long sharp fingers were actually all curved in one direction.

Although I tired to capture these spectacular works of art on film - the camera just could not begin to adequately display God's handiwork. And as I reflected, I was reminded of just how great our God is and what a wonderful world He has created for us to enjoy.

By the time I returned from taking the dogs for a short walk, the sun was growing brighter and warmer. As I filled the bird feeder in our backyard, I turned just in time to see the windy icicles fall - it was a good thing I had photographed them when I did. The large one near our picture window was gone by noon - I actually missed it! The large pencil-shaped piece of ice had become a part of our surroundings for days.

As I reflect, I wonder, how many times do I miss special creative blessings from God? Do I take time to leave my daily chores and work to catch glimpses of God - geese flying across a baby blue sky, squirrels scampering about in our black walnut trees or a glorious sunset or sunrise? May God forgive me when I am just too busy to notice.

An amazing world created by our Heavenly Father greets us each day. As spring approaches, glimpses of the first spring flowers poking their colorful heads through the rich earth will soon appear. Will I be too busy to notice? I am going to try to watch for their delightful entries into our world once more! They will change and grow quickly. Will I miss the moment God has planned for me to see one of His wonders? And to perhaps try to catch the blessing on film or just in my heart?

Which of God's creative blessings have you tried to capture on film lately? And are you anxious for what He has in store for us for the next season? More importantly, are you too busy or are you ready to see what He has in store?

Glimpes of my heritage. . . . . . . .

2010-02-12T15:21:00.005-07:00

"The Lord is the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You support my lot.
The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Indeed, my heritage is beautiful to me."
Psalms 16: 5-6

Who would think a coffee cup would have so much significance? But, today as I sip flavored coffee from a Polish Stoneware cup, I realize it is important to me. Because. . . . . it links me to my Polish heritage. I feel closer to the Woznick family just from holding this warm, colorful cup in my hands. It was hand painted by a Pole - maybe even a relative of mine! Bright shades of blue, orange, green, yellow, and red are included in its design. And it is the only such cup ever made - there are no duplicates!

I reflect upon the distinctive personalities I remember when we Woznicks used to gather together when I was a child. My Uncle Friday's unique laugh, his robust voice filling the room as he visited with relatives. And still, he managed to smoke his pipe all the while - I loved that smell:-) My Grandma Nellie's white as snow hair curled upon her head, she almost always wore a colorful apron and had a sweet little giggle - it just always seemed to echo from wherever she was. A cheerful soul; I can still hear her bubbly responses in the corners of my mind.

She and Grandpa Tony's yard was unlike any in town and reflected the old country. A quaint, simple home, filled with this and thats. . . unique and vibrant and carefully arranged. No dust about either! Outside, I skipped along wooden sidewalks while chickens clucked from the tiny chicken coop. Blooming flowers and green plants in unique pots were both inside and out. As were several wooden bench swings my Grandpa made - one was smaller for us young ones! My cousins and I had so much fun swinging and playing in those!

This is just a small glimpse of my much loved Polish family who are mostly gone from this earth now. But the cup I sip from eases not seeing them anymore. Somehow, I feel closer to them just looking at it. And the hope Christ gives also gives me hope I will see them again some day!

As I reflect, I think about how God has given a heritage to anyone who believes in His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, as their personal Savior. Each of us Christians is a child of God and a part of God's greater family. We share a heritage with the God who made this earth - that is pretty awesome when you think about it. And it is quite beautiful as the Scripture says. Vibrant in His glory. Secure in His unconditional love.

I think, what if I could paint a cup to reflect my Christian heritage. What would it look like? What colors would I use and what objects would I include to tell the world who I am in Christ. I have some visions, some ideas.

What would your cup look like?

p.s. visit www.polishstoneware.com if you'd like!

Isn't it refreshing to know. . . . our times are in His hands?

2010-02-09T23:52:00.005-07:00

"But as for me, I trust in You, O Lord,
I say, You are my God.
My times are in Your hands." - Psalms 31

Much time has passed since I last posted any thoughts on my blog - I don't know where the time went but I do know that all those times were in the hands of my loving Heavenly Father. That is so reassuring to me.

I guess it just has not been the time to write at this point in my life. Perhaps it is time to start again - maybe just short entries though. Have had some health challenges which of course are no surprise to my Lord. They are not such that I cannot function or write:-) Thankfully!

But, the last few months have flown by it seems - with the holidays and all. I turned another year older too without much celebration but I am finding that is the case more often than not as we grow older.

I have returned to a former hobby - sewing - since my hubby got me a new sewing machine for Christmas. It has really been fun because the machines have been updated so wonderfully and they are so much easier to use. My first project was a set of aprons for my husband's daughter and granddaughter since they like to cook together. The gifts seemed to be a hit!

I also received a digital camera - finally! So, perhaps now I can do more posts on this blog of my work and also share photographic presentations set to my music with various groups. Speaking of - lately, my time has been spent organizing music compositions I have written through the years, organizing a Sunday School at church and teaching there, playing the piano for the children's choir and the prelude before worship. Seems music has taken the forefront these last few months. God knew this was the plan for my life.

When I first started my blog, I recall writing about how I needed to get settled. And during this settling process, I have finally returned to one of my passions - music. There's nothing quite like playing a melody from the heart on the piano - my deepest feelings just seem to flow over the keys and into the air. Hopefully, what I play touches hearts and helps others feel closer to the God who loves us all.

Music is one of the gifts God has given me. What gifts have He given you and how do you share yours with others?

An Easter Lily in October

2009-10-05T17:01:00.011-06:00

"Whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." - John 3:16

This verse just seems appropriate for today. This afternoon I was out checking my flowerbeds after a frost. I sighed as I saw the once vibrant zinnias now all brown; their dried heads drooping toward the ground, no longer taking in the rays of the bright sun. I eyed another bed closer to the house where four o'clocks once displayed their white and pink blossoms and bright green foliage. They too had been bitten by Jack Frost and had turned black.

Then I saw it. Could it possibly be? It was standing tall and vibrant. It's green leaves perfectly shaped. The near dead Easter lily I had planted in the spring was there catching rays from the late afternoon sun peeping from the grayish clouds. My husband and I had bought the lily in remembrance of our parents who have passed on. With its' full glorious white blossoms, it had once adorned the church where we worship, along with many others.

I had not noticed it all summer long. In fact, even though I watered the bed daily, I thought it must have died and forgot about it. But, the four 0'clocks must have sheltered it through the hot summer months, hiding it from my view. It had also managed to escape the freezing temps.

And now, the once dried up plant is standing tall and steady as if to say, "Yes I'm here, I'm alive!" As I reflect, I think it a wonderful reminder from God. A simple plant brought my parents and my husband's parents to mind. The lily had displayed new life among the dead, hope in a cold world. We would see them again some day. It was also an affirmation of the hope I have in Christ.

Earlier today, I had a conversation with a man who stops by our home every couple of weeks or so selling special flavors of ice cream and yummy foods to grace our table. But, he was carrying more than our order today when he reached the door. He had a burden on his heart and the tears in his eyes spoke volumes as he shared his sorrow with me. His dear friend had just been in an car accident and was killed. It had happened so suddenly and was so unexpected.

"Was he a believer?" I asked. "Yes, but only just recently" he said, explaining he had planted some seeds about Christ in his friend's heart not long ago. His buddy was apparently just getting his life turned around, had taken God's hand and was headed in the right direction. My distraught visitor was hoping the seeds had taken root. "Well, that is the Holy Spirit's work," I said, reassuring him he had done a good thing.

It's kind of like the Easter lily. I had planted it even though it looked like it was dead. I had hoped it would survive. And it did through God's grace and care. Even though I was not aware of it, God had been doing His work, nourishing it as only God can. I had forgotten but God had not.

Just like He will not forget us. Sometimes I need to reflect upon what is truly at the heart of the Gospel. That knowing Jesus is really all about a new life. A new body that will never perish. A new beginning in a new home where there is no more sin or suffering. I get so caught up in day to day life that I lose sight of what Jesus did on a cross for me. That my sins can be forgiven because of Him alone.

We are really only here for a brief time on this earth. God is good and has provided us with the Holy Spirit to keep us company on our journey. We are traveling through from here to there to reach our final destination where we will indeed have new life.

Death has no victory, has no sting, for those who confess their sins, believe and receive Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior.

The Easter lily in October reminded me of that today.

Has God reminded you of anything lately?

Harvest Blessings

2009-09-15T11:33:00.003-06:00

"The tender grass grows up at His command to feed the cattle, and there are fruit trees, vegetables, and grain for man to cultivate, and wine to make him glad and olive oil as lotion for his skin, and bread do give him strength." - Psalms 104

The 104th Psalms is one of my favorite passages about God. His greatness and wisdom just shine throughout this portion of Scripture. While reflecting upon these verses, I feel so safe and secure in the world that God made.

Since I moved to the country recently, these passages have even more meaning to me. My husband and son and other farmers in the valley are harvesting what they planted in the spring - the first crop on the agenda is dry edible beans. Fields that were once green have now turned a golden yellow and the beans have matured inside the dried pods. They are ready to be combined, dumped in trucks and hauled to the beanery. Later they will be transported to factories where they will be processed - some will appear on your grocery shelves as cans of pork and beans, or baked beans, or perhaps chili. It is just one of the crops that we grow in Western Nebraska to feed the hungry of the world. And God designed these unique plants - He knew the type of soil and weather they would need to grow and mature into a food source. Caring for the crops is the responsibility of man. Although the mainstream media does not emphasize this much, being a farmer is a most honorable profession.

Once the beans are finished, it will be time to harvest sugar beets. We have some growing near our country home. If you have never seen one, they look much like a red beet in a garden plot only the leaves are much larger as is the beet itself. The beet is white and must be pulled from the ground and loaded in trucks. Then it is taken to the sugar factory nearby where it is turned into pure white sugar. You probably ate some of it today in one form or another. Not many food processors actually list sugar beet as an ingredient on the label but rather the term sugar is used. God knew we would need sugar in our bodies - for energy. You will find sugar in bread and it is added to fruit to make jelly and jams. The ways to use sugar is extensive including some very pleasant foods for us to enjoy - like candy, cookies, cakes and pastry. It is one food that we can eat too much of because it tastes so wonderful. Although it only contains 15 calories per teaspoon, we tend to consume too much sometimes:-)

Next, corn will be harvested. When it is picked or combined, it is in a dry, hard state, not like the sweet corn you may buy fresh, frozen or canned. The type of corn we raise is used to feed cattle and other livestock. So, in one sense, when you are eating a hamburger, you are also eating corn:-)

God had a plan in everything He made! He sends rain and sun to help crops grow and as the temps drop and fall approaches, the crops in the field ripen and mature. It is all part of His divine wisdom and His awesome creation.

Although I have only preserved sweet corn this year, there are others in my neighborhood who are canning vegetables like crazy - tomatoes, peppers, cabbage, carrots, red beets, green beans, cauliflower, broccoli and cucumbers. Soon apples and cherries will be ready to preserve. Again, we experience God's provision for His people to function properly and stay healthy. And we are truly blessed.

Harvest is a good reminder of God's greatness. What foods are harvested in your area of the country?

Thanks for visiting my blog!

Blessings to each of you!

Painting my world green

2009-08-31T14:40:00.004-06:00

I am quite content to write today following the adventures I had last week painting the outside trim of our farm house.

Actually, as I continued to paint each day, I was proud of managing the occasional drips from my paint pad! After all, I had successfully kept chocolate brown and sage green paint off of most surfaces including the sidewalk, steps, the white stucco walls, dog and flowers. Now the cat did end up with stripes twice - once brown and another, green - both times she received a nice sponge bath. I think she actually liked her time at the spa but never really understood why she was receiving such lavish treatment.

Now, on the final day of my painting project, my journey took a turn. More like a sharp curve, really. You see, it was a hot day and I could not wait to get finished! I had been trying desperately to reach the eves of the house with the extended ladder my hubby provided. Stretching as far as I could, and nearly on the top rung, I prayed to God to keep me from falling. But I still could not reach the entire trim board at the peak of the roof. "Oh, to be taller", I cried out to the Lord. Finally I swallowed my womanly "I can do anything" pride and asked my hubby to help.

He consented with little reservation - so he climbed on top of the roof and could easily bend over and paint the trim board from there. I was so happy! Yes! I will no longer have to struggle and remain in my dilemma. We worked so well together - as I confirmed from below what spots he had missed and needed to touch up. Soon, he ran out of paint. I reassured him I could bring him some in no time!

Running into the porch where my paint supplies were, I thought about grabbing the whole paint can but had second thoughts. Which was a good decision! I quickly poured the green sage paint in a container and headed out the back door, thinking how great it would be to actually get the trim done that afternoon!

Then it happened.

Carrying the container out the door, I simply tripped. Green sage paint went flying!

It landed all over the back step, hitting the concrete slab below, the black railing, and the white and pink four-o'clocks I had saved from the dog's impulsive digging. And the paint also splattered on my car! That's right, my Ford Taurus that my husband had parked near the step the night before. (So we could easily unload bags of mulch we had purchased for the fall flower beds.)

For a moment - a brief moment - I froze in my tracks. My right hand and arm covered in sticky, gooey paint. I couldn't believe what had just happened. I looked at the whole scene in a state of shock.

Then, I went into bumble bee mode - buzzing here and there! First, I grabbed the garden hose and turned it on full blast! Spraying the step down with water, then the car, my thoughts racing like wild fire. Running in the house, I had to get something but what? For awhile it was if I was running in circles! Think, think! What should I get? I grabbed a can of Comet, a steel brush, some laundry detergent with extra stain fighters,(yeah, that should do it!) and a scrubbing sponge.

Meanwhile, my hubby called from the roof - "What happened? Look at your car! Look at the step! You better get that off your car and it's going to set on that step fast."("Yeah, like I know Lar", I remember thinking.)

It was if a race was on. . . . between the car and the step. I ran back and forth between the two - threw some soap on the car, then sprinkled Comet over every bit of paint I eyed on the step. Then I took a steel brush and scrubbed the cement like my life depended on it, working quicker than I could have ever imagined. To think I had felt almost like taking a nap a few minutes before. - Ha! Now, I had a burst of energy that came out of nowhere within the depths of my being. I rushed over to the car and splashed it with more water, and returned to the setting paint on the cement. It seemed to soak into the porous substance in seconds!

But as I kept working, I gained hope! Things were looking better all the time. Once I had the step under control, I took a sponge to the car and moved faster than a monkey in a peanut factory.

Meanwhile, back on the roof, Lar had not received his paint and was doing the best he could with what he had. "Can you come look at this Carole, did I miss any spots?" "MISS ANY SPOTS!?" I said to myself. "Like, I have enough spots to handle down here honey".

Well, to make a long story short - there was no argument between husband and wife,(Some would call that a miracle.) And the trim was finished - yay! Plus, my quick actions and extra scrubbing power paid off! I was able to get the paint off of everything - even the flowers!

But, when I was tempted to paint the picnic table later that afternoon. I had just started to scrape off the old paint when I thought again. "No, I think I've had enough painting for one day. It can wait for tomorrow."

And once more the truth that Jesus taught comes to mind. "So, do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself, Each day has enough trouble of its own."

And another . . . . . "Joy cometh in the morning."

Finally, like my last post proclaims, "Laughter is like medicine to the soul." Upon reflection, I can laugh about the experience - it actually was quite funny and as one of my friends told me, "like a cartoon".

Have you had any experiences that played out like a cartoon? If so, I would enjoy hearing about them!

Thanks for visiting "Reflections"!

Joy during "one of those days"

2009-08-21T15:33:00.004-06:00

I should have known I might be having "one of those days" when the first thing this morning I started having little mishaps.

I walked out the back door to give our dog Shaggy his breakfast, carrying the large popcorn tin with the stubborn lid. He was standing there patiently waiting when the lid suddenly gave way to my determined prodding. Dog food went flying and I lost complete control of the can. Empty by now, it rolled down the steps with a loud bang and then another BANG! I stood there almost in shock. Bits of dogie treats - well lots of bits - landed all over the step. Would you believe not a single piece went in his bowl? The whole scene scared Shag so much that he forgot he was hungry and left. And I had a big mess to clean up. When the neighbor dog showed up, I thought there might be hope! Naught. He walked by, as if to say, "I don't eat food not properly served." Some of the food landed in my pots of orange, yellow and purple mums. I doubt it will make good fertilizer. But, I had to laugh as I swept up the mess. I thought of the verse in Proverbs about how a "joyful heart is good medicine for the soul." And it was.

Later, while I was walking to the mail box, I heard the squirrels scampering about in the large black walnut trees in our yard. Every once in awhile, an outer shell from a nut would fall to the ground, then another and then another. Soon, I felt like I was being bombarded! I looked up and one landed on the front of my shirt. "What is it about animals and their food supply this morning?" I said to myself. On my return trip to the house, I joyfully watched two squirrels play a game of chase - it was hilarious and I had to laugh! God had provided a simple blessing via squirrels.

Back at the farmhouse, I thought I would do my husband a favor and wash his coveralls before harvest, after all he'll be needing them. So I stuffed three pairs in the washer, only to find some rusty substance all over the inside of my washer afterwards - and all over the coveralls as well. What in the world is this stuff I pondered as I wiped down my washer with bleach. My hubby could shed no light on the subject. So,I washed them again. They look better but hang on the line embellished with rust stripes. I'll let him explain it to his fellow farmers.

Speaking of stripes, our gray tabby kitten decided I needed a helping paw when I attempted to start painting the trim on the house after lunch. I know the paint looks like chocolate but it's not. I tried to tell her. Within minutes of her appearance on the step, she had brown stripes on her coat. Thus, I ended up giving her a sponge bath. Although cats aren't too keen on water, she had a positive and willing attitude. I was pleased. But I also decided to delay the painting project and headed for my PC to write!

Now, the question is, should I go on to the next project? My husband has picked sweet corn so I can preserve it for the winter. I planned to do that this evening. But should I? I hesitate as I ponder whether I should sit at the picnic table to shuck it - that's where the squirrels hang out and I am quite sure both kittens will show up to help. Do I really want to be bombed by nuts or have a cat's paw help me remove husks? My office is so inviting right now:-)

I guess the main thing is this; as long as I can keep laughing and feeling joyful I'm good!

My daughter recently gave me a plaque she made. It reads "Enjoy the little things." I have it hanging by my monitor and it seems quite fitting for today. Being able to laugh during "one of those days" is indeed a blessing from God and I thank Him for it! Laughter is good medicine for my soul!

Do you find joy in simple things? Please write and tell me about it! I would love to hear from you.

p.s. By the way, a skit I wrote will be performed this Sunday in church. All the actors are volunteers who answered the call so willingly! It's another one of those doors of grace God has opened along my life's journey.

Walking through God's doors of grace

2009-08-12T15:39:00.004-06:00

"He, who began a good work in you, will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6

Since I wrote my last post, I am continuing my time of stillness before God and have not made any major decisions about which way to turn. However, I am reminded of a verse from Scripture that I had posted on our kitchen bulletin board for years - "God is always at work in you." And as I wait in my stillness, I see my Heavenly Father working. . . . . . . some doors have opened in my life that I call "God's doors of grace." And I am feeling confident and joyous about walking through those entries of divine goodness because each door conforms to the gifts God has given me. It's a fit!

(Reflection: I've been in more than a few places where it was not a good fit. That can be a very revealing experience about oneself. Simply put; a round peg does not fit into a square hole. And it just doesn't feel quite right inside one's spirit. . . at least not for me. I chalk it up as lesson learned and God had a purpose through it all - it was not in vain. Keep on keep'in on!)

Back to God's doors of grace. . . . .One door opened last week, while attending a Christian Education meeting at church. I was asked to write a script for a skit to promote Sunday School. The skit will be performed by members of our church family and is planned for the morning worship hour later this month. When pastor asked me to do this, it was as if a bright, beaming sun rose in my spirit! "I will be glad to write that for you," I said joyfully!

Another "door of grace" opened yesterday while I was out delivering sweet corn. (A fun thing to do if you have never tried it! My husband's family grows it every year on their farm and gives it all away! ) Anyway. . . . . . during one of my stops, a conversation arose about a former video/music presentation I had done for a group at a local church. The leader, who is planning this year's events, asked if I would return and do a similar presentation. S-M-I-L-E ! "I certainly would," I said.

And so, I will be sharing photos I have taken of God's creation, thoughts from His precious Word and play melodies I have composed on the piano. I can't wait to get started! This door also prompted me to think about other possibilities - what other groups might like me to come and share? Perhaps the Veterans Home. A call to them might be a good thing to do. What do you think God? Again, Be Still. Don't run ahead.

In the meantime, I have painted my kitchen, did yard work, shopped for groceries, had lunch with a friend, celebrated my grandson's birthday, have sweet corn to prepare for freezing and mums to plant into God's rich earth.

And as I proceed and try to get settled. . . . . . I'll listen and watch for "God's grace doors" to open.

Have you experienced "God's grace doors" in your life?

August 6th - 2009 Stop and Be Still

2009-08-06T13:24:00.003-06:00

On my church bulletin from last Sunday is a picture of a stop sign mounted on an extra tall post with arrows below it - one is going right, one left, one down, one up but they all have slashes across them indicating not to turn that direction. Below the signs is a verse from the 46th chapter of Psalms, "Be Still and Know That I Am God". . . . . . ..

This depicts how I feel right now in my life's journey. And the verse from His Word is exactly what I need to do. But this is a challenge to my anxious spirit. I want to move in one of those directions - get busy with something and not stop for awhile to listen to my heavenly Father.

The "should committee" is in full force in my head. You should be making money. You should be using your skills to help others, you should be productive - there's no time to sit around, get with it!! I even feel guilty for sitting still. Wait a minute! Who was it who told me to do be still?
The Lord. Why did he tell me that? Because He has a plan for my life and I need to listen for His direction before I proceed.

How do I accomplish this? I can't just sit in a rocking chair all day and wait for Him to speak! First, I pick up my Bible to read and ponder. Second, I pray and write in my journal. Third, I open my mind to possibilities, believing God will open some doors - the RIGHT doors for me to enter. Fourth, I develop MORE patience and fifth, I do what I call "no brainers" - i.e. painting the kitchen, mowing the lawn, cleaning the house and etc. Thanks to my husband, who has been so supportive of my decision not to work outside the home, I also have some much needed time to spend with family and friends - that is a tremendous blessing to me:-)

And God is beginning to show me some paths. At a Christian Education meeting the other night, we were brain storming on how we could get a Sunday School started for children and teens. We will be starting a campaign of sorts to get this program started. One of the things we will do is share our enthusiasm with the congregation each Sunday. I was asked to write a skit to be presented in church. "I would love to!" was my response, my spirit soaring inside me. . . . I get to write again - I can actually sit down and write a short play - yay!!!!

And how did I know this was God leading me down a new path? First, he has given me the skill and love for writing. It has been tucked away for awhile. But it has always been my dream to pursue it further. Not as a reporter, as in former days, but in some new way. It is a dream that keeps coming back to me time and time again. For years, I have put it on the back burner.

In a recent sermon, our Pastor said that if your life's dream - your passion - keeps returning to you - it is an indication that the dream is from God and involves His plan for your life. But you have to be still to listen for His leading - to recognize when He says, "Come walk with me."

"Be still and know that I am God." Have you tried this in your life? If so, how?

July 30, 2009 - How do I want to spend my remaining time on earth?

2009-07-30T19:06:00.006-06:00

. . . . . . . Well it is has been more than awhile since I have written on my Blog or even visited any. That's what a full time job did for me at a doctor's office whose goal was to process 20 patients a day in 20 minute slots. I had little energy for anything else.

It was a stressful job for me and every time I reviewed responsibilities of the job with my boss, the bottom line always seemed to be money. That was a big turn off for me. An ethical turn off. I saw a side to health care I had not seen before - no wonder our health care system is in such a mess in America! ( Has Congress thought about putting a cap on what doctors, hospitals and pharmaceutical companies can charge? If not, why not?) When he added more responsibilities to an already rushed day, I had to ask myself this question, "Do I really want to spend the rest of my life on God's earth doing this?" Some people can handle this type of work load well but I am not one of them. I had to recognize this about myself. And, the answer was clear cut. "No! I think the Lord has other things for me to do that fits who I am." It was a turning point.

So I am re-evaluating how I want to live my life and use the skills God has given me to help others - to make a positive difference while adding some dollars to help with living expenses and give some of it back to the Lord.

I am reflecting over the past seven years since my divorce. . . . all the transitions I have went through with Him by my side every minute. Each one had a purpose, each change was a part of His plan for my life. All the challenges I have overcome with His help and the growth steps I have taken knowing He was in charge of each one. The new found joys I have experienced along the way and discovering how simple things can truly bring so much satisfaction in life. And how TIME is such a great healer - if one is just patient enough:-)

I have re-married now. It is a new beginning of sorts. It is also a time to get settled which I have not done for quite some time. To really settle for awhile and listen for God's voice. Sigh . . . . how I have needed this time and never realized it. Until now.

How does He want me to spend my remaining time on this earth?

Perhaps for some of you readers out there. . . . it is also time for you to do the same. "How do you want to spend your remaining time of earth? " We only live once. Maybe it is time for you to reflect. . . . . to ponder. . . . . . to find your place in this world.

A sunny day writer's block

2009-04-20T14:51:00.003-06:00

April 20, 2009
Well, sure enough the sun is shining - in fact, we have went from near winter conditions to summer in a 48 hour time period! The moisture was a blessing and has certainly prepared the soil for planting. And the grass is beginning to turn shades of green giving me a touch of spring fever.But today I have a video presentation to get ready that includes a writing project. I seem to be having some writer's block -something I have experienced before. I do not always know what brings these frustrating blocks about. But I do have a few remedies if any of you writers out there run into such a challenge.
(1) Step away from the computer - the research books - anything that has anything to do with the project and give yourself some space. It will be there when you return:-)
(2) If you haven't started to journal - give it a try. It is great therapy, a good way to vent and it is surprising what insights emerge when one puts pen to paper. I have gained many through the years and have started a book project containing tidbits from my journals that I hope may be helpful to others. My granddaughter hopefuly can illustrate it for me one day. At any rate - I am going to take some time to write in my journal for awhile TODAY. It often relieves a writer's block, among other things.
(3) Take a walk - nothing like fresh spring air to clear the mind and get the body moving. It doesn't have to be a long one - just a stroll of sorts to drink in some of God's creation. It's a great way to get to know God better - what He has created tells us volumes about who He is. "Shall I look to the mountain gods for help? No, my help comes from Jehovah who made the mountains!"
Speaking of. . . . .(4) God knows all about those writers blocks so ask Him for some wisdom and some peace until you return to your writing post:-)
BLESSINGS,
Carole

Rainy day reflections. . . . . . . . .

2009-04-17T11:40:00.006-06:00

It's another rainy day and I so long for the sun to shine! But until then, I will thank the Lord for the moisture He is providing. . . . He surely has a reason for sending it - of that we can be sure. Seeds will soon be planted in the fresh earth as spring is upon us! And the mositure will help them sprout:-)
It's a good time to sit inside and get cozy with a warm cup of flavored coffee and relfect upon rainfalls found in His Word.
Did you realize that when God first created the earth there were no plants or grain sprouting up for the Lord hadn't sent any rain - however, water later welled up from the ground at certain places and flowed across the land causing a green landscape and lush garden for all creation to enjoy. And God had a reason. The first ever rainfall was recorded in Genesis 7:11-12 when Noah built an ark - the Bible says "the rain came down in mighty torrents from the sky". And God again had a reason - read more about it in Genesis 6, 7 and 8. It took alot of faith and trust in God for Noah to build a huge, sturdy boat for his family and the pairs of animals God told him to get on board! I have to ask myself, would I have had the same faith as Noah? Upon reflection, even though it seems like it has been raining for a long time, it is not even close to 40 days and 40 nights! Can you imagine?
So, a few days is not so bad to endure inside and travel some muddy roads if necessary. Soon the sun will shine and the temperatures will rise. I have faith that God will bring this about. . . . He has a reason. (He knows there are flowers to plant and crops to grow :-).